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[31 Aug 2005|09:51pm] |
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I have been in a great mood lately. I guess I know why...
Today was a normal work day. I was busy in projects and unsuspecting of who would come by to say hey out of the blue. I have to admit... you put a smile on my face. Even if nothing happens out of any of this and we become "just friends"... I have the present state of mind that seems to get me through each day without a care in the world... HAPPINESS. I feel this way because of you. Take that however you want it.
Thank You!!
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| Beer Pong!! |
[17 Aug 2005|10:44pm] |
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Last night was amazing! Some of us met up at Outback to eat for Ryan's 21st Birthday and then went up to Fridays. I saw Katie up there, which was a nice surprise.
After that, we all went out to D Bubba and JoJo's to play beer pong! Things were going great until the PC Champs of Beer Pong came over and wanted a piece of Dennis and I. They beat us the first game pretty badly and I was getting really drunk by that point. Then we played them for money and won. That pissed them off. Then one of the guys said we should play double or nothing and they would put up their championship trophy. Dennis didn't want to bet against the man's trophy... but I wanted it. I told him it would look so good on my mom's black fridge! AHAHAHAHA By this point, a crowd had begun to witness such a tremendous battle! We went all the way down the wire until i hit the game tying shot to put us into overtime. Everyone went nuts! It had to be one of the greatest feelings ever! I'm so God Damn competitive, you have no idea!! I really wanted this guys trophy, seriously. They got to go first in overtime and actually made all 3 shots, so we didn't really get a chance to do anything. We lost... but they were sweating! AHAHAHA Dennis and I are going to join the Beer Pong league if one is ever started! Oh yeah... my jersey will say BEERGESS!!!
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| It's been a while! |
[07 Aug 2005|08:25pm] |
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Hmmm... nothing to write about. Maybe I will let you know a little about me. My name is Jamie Douglas Burgess and I was born on July 8, 1979 in Mt. Vernon, Ohio. My dad was 24 and my mom was 18. We lived there for a few years, my sister and I, then moved to Panama City, Fl. in 1982. I have been here ever since. My parents obviously got married too fast... mainly because of my unexpected arrival into this world... and some problems insued. My dad drank quite a bit and loved to take his anger out on me with his belt when he saw fit. HAH... I remember getting popped by the belt for crying during the last episode of Fraggle Rock. "Stop crying like a little girl," my dad said. "I'll give you something real to cry about." Let's just say that my mom couldn't put up with it for much longer and they ended up getting a divorce when I was about 8. We still had the occasional visits with him on the weekends, wherever he would be living each month... it always changed. One day, he asked my sister and I if we would like to see our grandparents in Wyoming... the cool grandparents that always got us the best gifts. "Your mom said it would be fine, but we would have to leave tonight." Um yeah... after a 3 day bus trip and several calls from my mother to my grandparents in Wyoming, I soon realized that we had been kidnapped. Living in Wyoming for 3 months was actually pretty fun. It snowed while we were there and I actually went to school. The school was a lot of fun and I made friends easily. After a few months, we had to move back to Florida... and then my life would continue to change...
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| A Broken Heart... |
[18 Jun 2005|11:28pm] |
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I feel as if my heart is broken... but I was never in a relationship. Why do I feel like this? It should have never been dragged on this far. I should know better than that. No more! I'm beginning to think that it's not even worth any of my time anymore. I obviously want something I will never have and have self inflicted all of my drama. Today was a horrible day
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| From my heart... |
[02 Jun 2005|01:50pm] |
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"The Pain of Happiness..."
:by Jamie Burgess
Waking up each morning,
a smile upon my face.
She fills my head with happy thoughts,
her beauty... her grace.
Her presence exceeds my every expectation,
longing to hear her voice,
I await with anticipation.
Admiring your beauty,
you shine like a star.
I sometimes feel as if,
you don't know the greatness you are.
A gentle kiss from you would be so memorable and so sweet.
Those you've kissed in the past never realized,
a kiss from you was a priviledge,
from the most amazing person they would EVER meet.
In midst of all this happiness,
a presence of despair.
Those thought to be angels in the past,
scarred my heart without any sympathy... without any care.
Everyone I get close to turns to dust... they disappear,
this is why opening up and getting too close will always be my biggest fear.
Spending time with you is like Heaven,
in every sense of the word.
Not having you in my life at all,
simply seems obsurd.
These feelings, bottled up, will always remain,
a friendship with you, I must always sustain.
But still, this pain inside me will forever grow,
for my love for her... SHE WILL NEVER KNOW.
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| Just call me stupid. |
[11 May 2005|11:32pm] |
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Today sucked. Reality slapped me in the face at work. I'm sad. That is all. Why am I such a fucking idiot? At the moment, the one word that has best described me since Valentine's Day is Torture. It's not school related and I brought it all on myself by holding it all in. I'm really nieve for ever thinking... nevermind, I'm done talking about this. I really like this girl a lot.
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| I'm an idiot to think that she liked me... |
[23 Apr 2005|07:28pm] |
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HMMM... I'm a real idiot. It kind of feels like someone is throwing darts at my heart while it hangs on a wall. Oh Lord, why is it that you FREQUENTLY remind me that if something seems too good to be true, that it ALWAYS is? ASSHOLE! What was I thinking anyways... I kind of brought it all on myself I guess. Like I said... I'm a real idiot.
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| HAPP"Y EASTER! |
[27 Mar 2005|11:39pm] |
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I hope you all had a Happy Easter!
I did the whole family thing and we all watched some old home movies. There are definatley some incriminating things on those tapes. Someone could definately blackmale my sister and I because we were the biggest geeks. Oh man! There is one part of the tape where my sis and her friend are dressed up and dancing to "Jump Jump" by Kriss Kross while wearing their clothes backwards. I laughed really hard until I was shown doing the exact same thing. Oh wow... it was awful. I had a hoodie on with a backwards t-shirt over it and I was wearing my pants backwards and was hip hop dancing. I actually sprung up to my feet from laying on my back. It was hilarious... but extrememly embarrasing! Maybe some of you will get to see it if you're lucky. So many funny things on those tapes including my NASTY mullet with the jagged lines shaved in the side of my head. AMAZING!
After that, I went upstairs and worked out in the workout room. I did pilates for the 3rd time this week and I think I am becoming more flexible and definately more toned. SWEET! Who says that guys can't care about how they look... especially unattractive guys like me. I also worked out on the Weider machine and worked out my chest and legs. I plan on tanning sometime soon and then I will be a hot dude! My hair is growing out and doing it's shaggy thing... so look out ladies!
I just saw that McDonalds commercial where the guy and girl co-workers are on their break and the guy is complaining about how his gf left him. The really cute girl starts using an analogy about how she likes him by using a McGriddle and then he doesn't seem to get it. I wish something like that would happen to me. That girl was cute. LOL
I'm going to bed since I work tomorrow at 10am. I may hit up the show tomorrow night after I get off at 6. Where is it going to be?
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| Pondering |
[23 Mar 2005|03:07pm] |
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So I think I've developed a crush on someone. It kind of came out of the blue and caught me by suprise. I think I should try to snap out of it quickly... if I know what's best for me. She is awesome though. *sigh* But things are WAY too complicated to even begin to talk about. What's a guy to do? Oh well... back to my day of studying in the library. I have 3 tests tomorrow. BLAH!
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| Do you know me? |
[10 Mar 2005|12:16am] |
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Take my quiz! I'm interested to see how well some of you do.
http://www.quizyourfriends.com/yourquiz.php?quizname=050310010752-868758
Anyways, I've been really busy with school and work. I get to graduate from my 8 sporadic years at GCCC in May and they are only giving me 4 graduation tickets. Um yeah... sorry sis, you and your fiance can't come. AHAHAHAHAHA I'll find a way to sneak them in. Plus, Drew Lewis and the guys wanted to come and make signs and paint their bodies in tribute to me. I'll have to find a way to sneak them in also.
I have 80 more pages to write on my screenplay. I spent 5 hours writing 10 pages yesterday. I guess I better get cracking. I also have a 10 page Ethics paper that I need to finish by April 14. I have 1 pageso far. UGHH... I guess I kind of asked for all of this school related stress.
Well, I'm off to math and bilogy class and then I'm off to work. BLAH!
TAKE MY QUIZ OR I WILL NOT TALK TO YOU ANY MORE!
Thank You!
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| Fun fun! |
[06 Mar 2005|03:56pm] |
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I have been having a lot of fun on my Fridays lately. Lots of things are going on. I've been super busy with work and school, but I get to graduate in May. I'm excited. I only have to take 4 classes this summer and then I am done with GCCC. After that, I think I may move in with Dennis and Donald at their house since their parents are letting them refinance the house when they move to Ft. Lauderdale. That would be nice to be living in a house with really cheap rent. I still have to decide whether or not I want to do that or stay here at the folks' house. Either way, I am still moving to Tally or Orlando to go to school. Nothing much is going on in the romance department. I think I may be interested in someone, but it's WAY too complicated to get into. That always seems to be the case with me. I know I shouldn't act on them and I am going to try really hard not to. The power is MINE... or so Capt. Planet says.
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| I feel her slipping thorugh my fingers... now she's gone. |
[31 Jan 2005|01:46pm] |
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I now realize why I NEVER get interested in anyone. I may be way off, but I've had these feelings before. I really dig this girl... but now I'm having the weird feeling that she doesn't like me that way anymore... if she ever did. I've had nothing concrete to prove this, but my feelings are almost ALWAYS right. Why did I have to meet someone that I really ended up liking? I always seem to set my self up for the biggest let downs. Hopefully I can be proved wrong. I need a hug. Until then...
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| WOW |
[25 Jan 2005|11:15pm] |
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She's cool as shit! I'm having a lot of fun! :)
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| HAPPY! |
[20 Jan 2005|10:33am] |
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My first day off in 13 days turned out to be quite eventful. On my way to class, I got a flat tire, AGAIN! I rode with the tow truck guy, GENE, AGAIN! They didn't charge me for the tow since I am a frequent user... well I have an auto club. LOL Went to a tire shop on 231 where the guy that changed my tire had some Serious Mechanic Crack goin on. I was in amazement. Afterwards we were talking about me being in school and he ended up talking about French history and philosphy for nearly an hour. At one point, the phone rang and it sounded important until he asked them to hold, placed the phone on the table and talked to me for 30 more minutes... while this person is sitting there waiting on the phone listening to what we were talking about. It dawned on me that this guy was a lot smarter than I was. Funny how that turns out. By me busting my ass in college, am I destined to be a mechanic?
Anyways, After that whole ordeal, I managed to miss my screenwriting class, which I am pissed about. I went over to Heather's house to hang out shortly after that. I looked at some pictures and her scrapbook, played some Jeopardy and Ninja Turtles on Nintendo, watched some American Idol, went to see In Good company which was good but ended prematurely and ate at Corams where she tried to woo me by playing some Air Supply, Tim McGraw And Matchbox Twenty on the juke box, but it was being lame and played her songs about 20 minutes apart. Not sure if it ever played the last one. We played some Uno at her house and I won 3 times in a row. Unfortunately... that was the only time I won out of 100 games. I got home around 1am and read some of my Ethics assignments and ended up going to bed after 2am. Im really tired right now but I don't care.
A funny thing happened today. It's kind of like what happens in tv shows where a character has something happen to him early in the show but then it turns out to come up at the very end and seem really important. Well last night, I was looking through Heather's scrapbook and saw a random quote that said "Do or Do not, there is no Try." -Yoda Pretty random thing but kind of funny. Well today in my first class, my teacher goes to release the projector screen covering the board and what do you think was written on the board when it was revealed? That very same quote. As small of a detail as that was, it really made me smile a lot. I dunno... I just thought that was really neat, but most of you may think that it is lame. Oh well... I got it!
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| It's about damn time! |
[18 Jan 2005|12:59am] |
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I'm at a happy place right now. This New Year is starting out to be a very productive year. School is going great, I'm LOVING my screenwriting class, my job is keeping me busy, I have great friends and have even made some new ones. Only one thing can represent how I feel right now... :) I'm not used to that.
I worked most of the day today after I started my screenplay on my tv show for my screenwriting class. It is going to be really funny. I can't wait for some of you to read it. My friend Nicole, that I used to work with at Carmike, came up to say hey tonight. She's a little older than I am and we caught up since we haven't talked in a while. She introduced me to her friend, Jamie, that was actually filling out an application for my store. It turns out that she was the same Jamie that dated my friend Jared. That was cool to finally meet her, however I realized that we had met before. Anyways... school and work tomorrow. Can't wait until Wednesday... that's for damn sure!
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| A night out on the town! |
[27 Dec 2004|01:33pm] |
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Oh wow! What a freakin night! I met up with John, Josh, Trey and Chris at the Toy Box. Yeah, I didn't really want to go because strip clubs charge way too much to let you in and I knew we wouldn't be there long so I spent 10 bucks for about an hour of hanging out. One of the strippers used to work with me at Wendys a while back so it was pretty cool because I always wanted to see her naked. WHAT?
After that, John, Chris and I went out to Coyote Ugly. Um yeah, that place was definatley closed. We then went out to Krash's and I have never seen this place THAT packed! Amazing! I had sooooo much fun. It was DJ/Techno night and they had kids with their turntables throwing beats and everyone danced! I ran into Ryan, Patrick, Shawn, Jonathan and Alyssa there. While Johnny and Patrick were rave dancing on the stage in their peacoats and scarfs.. you would have had to see this hilarious performance... some of us were at a table in the corner getting trashed. Well this girl that I had talked to earlier at the bar came up to me and put my hoodie over my head and covered my eyes. I was yelling out in a drunken voice "I CAN'T SEE! I'm like a PIRATE... GAARRRRRRRRRR!" I really counldn't see, but I could hear everyone laughing. After that she took my hoodie off and was leaning in to talk to me. She asked if I remembered her name and I said it was Carla. She then proceeding to shove her tongue down my throat and started making out with me. I had no clue what was going on so I went with it until she stopped. This girl was trashed beyond belief. After that she shoved me into Ryan and then threw me out on the dance floor and began tossing me around like a rag doll. AHAHAHA I think she got kicked out shortly after that.
Anyways, after that, me, John and Chris went out to Corams and ate. The waitress was like, "You giys were at Krash's weren't you?" AHAHAHAHA I saw Josh Smith up there. Hadn't seen him in a while. I ended up getting home around 4:30 am. What a night! Maybe something will go down tonight! It was great seeing my friend John again! Anyways, Im about to relax before I have to go to work for my short day. Oh... did anyone see that tsunami wave that hit Thailand? That is nuts. I feel bad for those people. Anyways, I'm out!
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| Christmas Nostalgia! |
[25 Dec 2004|11:38pm] |
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Ok... so I went to bed around 2am last night and then woke up around 7am to open presents. Here is a list of everything I got:
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-Cliffhanger
-Van Helsing
-Say Anything
-A Cinderella Story (Amber... you have to see this one, even if it's not with me.)
-SNL Best of Christoper Walken
-All 3 Harry Potter movies
-Dawson's Creek season 4
-Buffy season 7
-South Park season 2
A dvd player, SNL Trivial Pursuit... which I already beat Brenna and Jen's ass in when they stopped by, some cologne, a robe (much needed), a hoodie and some other clothes! I think I had a pretty great Chrstmas. We stopped by my sister's place and her bf had proposed to her. He has a daughter also so now I have 2 nieces. YAY! I got his daughter a giant Baby Kermit stuffed animal and got my niece a giant Care Bear. They loved them. My niece got a doctor kit so I helped her give the stuffed animals their exams. She told me that she was the doctor and I was the animal's mommy! AHAHAHA It was really cute. She then said, in her manly doctor voice while checking blood pressure, "Roll up your sleeves!" She's only 3. It made me laugh for a while.
When I went up to my room, I saw that Sebastian... my fish, had passed away. That made me really sad. That guy was there for me through some tough times this Summer. My nieces and I gave him a burial at see in the toilet and they both told him bye bye and then flushed. Pretty Sad. That made me think about my luck during the Holidays. 4 Years ago... I was engaged and then caught my fiance cheating on me with one of my FEMALE employees that I worked with. Needless to say, I had a really tough time that Christmas. The next year, I was still bummed from the previous year and had many run ins with the ex that were not pleasant. The year after that, I had been dating a girl for a few months and then I caught her cheating on me with one of her co-workers just 2 weeks before Christmas. That was after I had spent 200.00 on that girl for presents and all she got me was a card that she made on notebook paper. I haven't dated since and that was 2 years ago. Last year was pretty lonely, but I got through it. The day after Christmas, I was driving to work at 7am and hit a car going about 55mph and missed about a week of work and didn't have a car for about a month. I have a feeling that my luck will finally change next year. There are definately some things I am changing about myself in this upcoming year. I should be off to a University by the end of next year and maybe, hopefully, becoming a hot guy by then. Wish me luck with that! I plan on having more girls noticing me and give me a second look by the end of next year. I've heard some of you say that I'm not attractive at parties in the past while drunk and talking to certain people, but I know I have a kick ass personality and stuff. Let's face it people... if I was cuter then I would have a better shot at some of you wanting to date me... well I like to think so anyways. Don't lie... I know many of you don't think I am very attractive, but that will change soon. Anyways, Merry Christmas and Thank you to Brenna and Jen for coming by tonight! We had a blast! Any watching SNL with Justin Timberlake was the funniest episode I have seen in a long time! WOW
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[20 Dec 2004|08:59pm] |
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LOVE, SEX AND ROMANCE
Name: Jeri
Birthdate: May 81
Hair: black/red
Eyes: brown
Height: 5'5"
Gender: lady
How many true relationships have you had?: 2-3
Have you ever been in love?: yes
What's your idea of a perfect date?: that depend...drinks,then dinner maybe. or a movie,depends who your with
Where's your favorite place to be kissed?: neck
How many sexual partners have you had?: enough
How many people have you kissed?: eleventy billion
do you like to make the first move?: sometimes
Are you a snuggler?: yeah
Do you kiss on the first date?: yes
where is the best place you've ever hooked up?: funniest, hot topic dressing room
Do you consider yourself to be romantic?: i can be
Are you an angel or a devil in the sack?: depends who your with.
Would you ever pay someone for sex?: no
Would you ever let someone pay YOU for sex?: nope
Do you keep your eyes open when you kiss?: sometimes.
What was your most embarrassing sexual moment?: it was so bad, and i was so drunk, i said I had a foot cramp
Have your parents ever caught you in a compromising position?: yes
Have you ever performed a striptease?: yep
How about a lapdance?: no
Have you ever received a lapdance?: nope
Do you like sexual contact?: yes
Are you straight, gay or bi?: straight.
Have you ever made out with a member of the same sex? yes
Are you a giver or a taker?: both.
What do you look for in a girlfriend/boyfriend?:
sense of humor,intelligence,easygoing is the biggest one
do you think you've met the person you will spend the rest of your life with?: hah
Do you know who your bridesmaids and groomsmen would be?:
no
Have you ever regretted a hook-up?:two
have you ever cheated on a significant other?: yes
have you ever hooked-up with someone already in a relationship?: yes
Have you ever cried over a member of the opposite sex?: of course
Have you ever had your heart broken?: a million times
Have you ever had a pregnancy scare?: yes
Would you date or marry someone if your parents didn't accept them?: sure
How about if your friends didn't accept them?: nope
What's the worst relationship you ever had?: five years ago to a dick
you ever done anything sexual while on the road?: of course
Would you kiss someone if you didn't love them?: yes.
who told you all about sex?: my friends
Are you always horny?: pretty much
Are you a flirt?: yes
are you a tease?: no
Do you prefer to chase or BE chased?: a little of both
do you prefer morning or evening hook-ups?: either, or, both, and, all
Have you ever pulled an all-nighter with a member of the opposite sex, and woke up in each others arms?: yeah im a girl of course
How old were you at the age of your first kiss?: 11
How old were you when you lost your virginity?: 17
Do you sometimes wish you could change that?: no, it's a great memory
Do you enjoy being in a relationship?: the beginings always great
Has anyone ever fallen in love with you?: a few
Have you ever said "I Love You" and not meant it?: yes, and it's the meanest thing that you can do to someone
are you "noisy" when you get heated?: fuck yeah
What is your kissing pet peeve? not enough tongue
Do you think you're a good kisser?: I've been told
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| Another lonely day. |
[10 Nov 2004|05:24am] |
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So yeah, it's definately 5am and I have been awake since 3am. I took some cold medicine that knocked me out around 10 and then once it wore off around midnight, I have been waking up all stuffed up and shit! I hate being sick!!! To top it all off, I have to be to work in about an hour and a half! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
Anyways, yesterday was my day off so I headed in to town to see what adventure awaited me. I sat at Starbucks and read for about 3 hours. I heard some interesting chatter all around me from many conversations since I'm so nosey! I tried to find someone to watch Alfie with me, but after the 9th person turned me down... I finally realized that I must have to Boubonic Plague or something because no one wanted to be around me. Oh well, I decided to watch SAW instead, alone. Pretty Creepy movie, but I liked it. The acting could have been a little better, but the gore definately made up for it.
So I've been doing some thinking and I've come up with a decision. That's all I'm saying about that! Well, I better get ready for work. I work the day shift today and tomorrow and then am off Friday! OC night at Drew's Condo Thursday! I can't wait to see some of you kids there!
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| Right back where we started from... |
[04 Nov 2004|09:11pm] |
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Today was a day full of ponders due to me being tired. I worked from 1 pm till 1am last night. Stupid Christmas floor plans! GRRRRRR Worked 8am till 3pm today. I am on a 7 hour break now an go back at 10 and stay till 2am because we are getting our carpets cleaned and I have to sit up there. GAY! Good thing I'm off tomorrow.
Ok... this customer came to my store today to check on an order. I asked for his reciept to check it out and the name said James Burgess. I thought it was a little faded and couldn't be right so I asked for his name. Sure enough, he said James Burgess. I couldn't resist so I told him that my name is Jamie Burgess and that this was a little werid for me. I then asked if he was me from the future. He then replied by asking me if I was him from the past! AHAHAHAHAHA
I came home and got ready for my big night of watching THE OC! It's funny how 6 months ago, at my apartment with a group of people there for OC night... we all didn't know what we would do for 6 months until the new season started. Well, let's recap shall we:
June approached and the Summer warmness began. What do I do... I go to Colorado for a week where it snowed 2 out of 7 days. I get back and work a week at Nextel until, on the day before my next vacation, I get fired. What do I do... I drive to Tally that night, get a flat tire, bum a ride to Tally with strangers, leave my car in Blountstown, and have Brandon take me to the airport where I flew to California and had a great time for a week. I came back and had a nice birthday party for me and a huge birthday party for Steve.I am unemployed for a whole month and a half, while getting some checks from Nextel still, and eventually get a new job at FYE when the Olympics start. My lease runs out in August and I choose to move into my parent's house so that I can save money for school. Little do I know, this decision would break up the party group and nothing is ever the same again.
Now... in watching the OC tonight, I realized how similar my summer was to the characters on the show. HMMMMMM, I run away after losing my job and then move out of my apartment and it seems to cause everything to change. Kind of like Ryan and Seth leaving perhaps?? Let's face it folks... the OC is back and so will old times... eventually. One thing has remained the same... No one has snatched me up yet! I have a feeling things are going to get better for all of us! AHAHAHAHAHA well, off to work to sit and watch the carpets get cleaned... then who knows?
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